Feels

I feel alive.

Knowing it’s been 15 business seconds, 

since you've been away 

And I'd rather you stayed

I feel alive,

Going through our photos I lied I lost, 

because you're insecure without makeup on,

and it makes you look 'plain'

I feel alive,

reminiscing moments we never shared, 

making up scenes in my head pretending its staged

I feel alive,

introducing me to your cousin, 

knowing that's your ex and by his own words,

'Hehe I'm just a call away'

I feel alive,

admitting I fake busy, 

just so I don't overthink you're with your main

I feel alive, 

I guess?

Or maybe, 

I love me this type of pain.